Wednesday 9/5/12

Hello out there!
I hope you all are doing well and life is going ah-mazingly!! 
I am back.....we will see.....I figure I will update you all on where I am at now a days!

Nothing much has really changes in my life...lately. I have been trying to grasp the emotional side of weight loss. This is probably the most challenging part of the whole thing. 

As of Friday 8/31/12:

Weighed in at: 171.4 lbs (size 14 pant size)
This means as of 8/31/12 I have lost a total of 108.6 lbs (2010 - 280 lbs, size 24 TIGHT pant size) since 2010

This has been a hard adjustment for me. I have issues when I look in the mirror still...sometime I feel skinny...and sometime I feel like the Big girl still. It is very challenging to me. I am trying to accept compliments now as well...sometime they get away from me but I am trying my best to let them absorb...because in reality my mind is messed up, outsiders are seeing me for what I really look like. Yes Shasta...you are smaller...you can fit into tight spaces...you are beautiful. LOL! 

When I was 108 lbs heavier I got, "Oh yeah she is amazing, she has a awesome personality." other people who are morbidly obese may get "She has a pretty face" I never really looked at it in a bad way until now really....that is really peoples nice way of saying "She's FAT" It is something I can't get out of my head. I revert back to it now even, when people tell me how good I look or how beautiful I am. This is what I am trying to overcome. 

This isn't a joke to me...this is my life. This is everything I have lived. I am not hiding anymore. I have image issues. I always have. I don't want this to rub off on my daughter, that is why I am trying to work it out now. I want Madi to be confident with herself, to know what healthy is. She deserves to have a chance to live her life to the fullest...I don't want her to have to go through the same torture I went through in elementary and middle school. I want her to respect her body. All I can do is teach her what I know. She is a beautiful, amazing little girl and probably will conquer the world...and I want her to believe that she can! 

Over this past 8-9 months I have had A LOT of support. I have made new friends and have lost some. This is life, people come and go. I realize now it is ok to part ways sometimes. Sometimes people are just there to make a mark on your life good or bad for a tiny bit of time....some are there for a lifetime. I appreciate all of you that have been there for me whether it had been for 5 minutes or 5 years. Times change people change and that is ok. 

I hope I will be able to keep this posting up again. It feels good to get it out sometimes. 

You define your own life.  Don’t let other people write yourlife’s story for you. - www.marcandangel.com

Thank you for reading.
Shasta

Vacation Brain

Did you think i was not going to write tonight?!?! Well thanks a lot! LOL! Thank you for believing in me! HAH!

I want to say that if you are actively in my life, you most likely will be in my blog....so sorry about yer luck!

Why is it that toddlers need to have tantrums? Does anyone really benefit from it? I am pretty sure I do not!!!! I though it was terrible twos...but have been informed that twos are cake compared to the threes.....

I have not done anything on my list of things to to before i go on Vacation. I have been working late and my brain is mush! LOL! I think i am already on vacation!

I am really doing good with eating and making sure I exercise everyday. With that going for me I am really excited to weigh in on Friday! KEEPing it DAY by DAY!!!

I got my blog in for the day!
Have a good night!!

-CS

Weigh In Day!

Even though it is only day 3, i chose to make Friday my weigh in day...also.. doesn't help that we are doing the "Live Healthy Challenge" at work and Friday is the weigh in day for that...ANY-HOOT!

I lost 2 lbs this week! 

Which is wonderful! I really feel great about this time...it is only day 3 but i think my head finally checked back in, where my heart has always been, in the weight loss journey!! Lets hope it is for good! I am only going to take it day by day because i do not want to set myself up for failure!

I made a goal a couple of weeks ago, it was to not leave the house with out makeup...because everyday I felt like this:

It seemed like no matter how much coffee I was drinking or how early i would go to bed...nothing helped...every time i looked in the mirror i was defeated. So I made the goal to always wear makeup...

I am going to introduce you to me....here is a before and after, not much of a difference you may think...but when you look into a mirror it makes all the difference in the world...

My name is Shasta, I am 28 years old, I have an almost 3 year old daughter. I am a single mom. DB is my, world, my heart and my soul! I work full time then come home and take care of my baby! She is a huge part/reason I HAVE/NEED to get healthy! I hope I can inspire some of you through my journey. I know there is going to be some ups and some downs, but i am only human and i will be taking this day by day!

This weeks goal: 

I am going to try to write a blog every week day...Monday through Friday....

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Shasta AKA CheapSoda

The end of day one....

I would have to say today wasn't so bad. I counted my calories and everything. I have to remember, DAY BY DAY!!!

Today I wasn't super hungry until after work, i had to go pick up my mom from the airport, so we didn't get home until 7ish. We did make a quick pit stop at Sprouts because I wanted to make a new dinner! That is what i am going to share with you tonight!

I record my weight/activity/food on an app/website called Fat Secret I love this app! The only bad thing about today was i went over my 1300 calorie limit that i gave to myself, but only by 66 calories so it isn't a big deal to me and i am not going to beat myself up about it! So there was this recipe called Zucchini Noodles that just drew me in, I was so curious I just had to make it tonight, and now i want to share!!! But you will have to wait until tomorrow night when i will have more time!

Goodnight all! and here is to day one complete!

CS

On the Wagon

Do you ever really look at food and lifestyle as an addiction? 

What makes you fall off the wagon from being "clean" anyway?

How come it is so hard to get back on track when you have been defeated? It seems like all the excuses in the world are there to block your path to better health, happiness, life, etc.

Why is it so hard to just leap over those excuses?

I had originally lost 40 lbs as of February 2011. Since then I have gained 20 of them back. I cannot make excuses for why I gained them back, I just have to make changes. 

Today marks my first day with no soda and no fast food.

This is my first of many goals.

Wish me luck!

Let's Do Work!

-CS-

Pretend its....Weigh in Wednesday! 10.19.11

Baaahahha!!! I have been so busy keeping up with my farm.....................yes...my farm...meaning FARM freaking VILLE on facebook!! Why?!? No idea! The time I play this dumb game is interfering with my blogging! I need to quit but i don't know how lol!! Any HOOT! Lets get to the Weigh In:

So Since we are pretending it is 10.19.11 i thought you should know that in exactly 7 months i will be starting my last year of my twenties......just a lil info for you.

Last Week: 214.80
This Week: 214.40
Total Loss: 0.40
Goal Weight: 140.00
Left to Go: 74.40

EEk! I had a small loss this week and i am totally fine with it! I know what i did wrong (eat regular yummy ice cream) and now i will stick to my 1 point weight watchers fudge pops. LOL! I didn't meet my small goal for the week and that is ok! I am not going to beat myself up about a small loss. Because a loss is a loss and still weight off of my body, so i am HAPPY about that!

Let do some goals!

Small Goal (for the Week): To lose at least 3.00 lbs at 10.26.11 weigh in - I am going to keep the 3 lb goal for the week BECAUSE i can! Lets DO THIS! LOL

These will be staying the same also
Medium Goal (for the Month): To lose 10.00 lbs by 11.12.11 (starting small...LOL)
Large Goal: to have lost 50 lbs in 20 weeks (2.5 lbs per week)

Right now i am in a good head space....thank you for all your supporting comments and everything!

love yer faces!

"Wock N Woll"

Weigh In Wednesday - 10.12.11

Ok i am not starting week 2 of weight watchers! I am not going to lie, this past week has been a bit challenging. I have been keeping on track for the most part...EXCEPT...over this past weekend, I took it off....LOL I had to give myself a day, which turned into two days, but i got right back on track on Monday. I actually love weight watchers, it's really great! Ok, ok so on to the Weigh in:


Last Week: 219.00
This Week: 214.80
Total Loss: 4.20
Goal Weight: 140.00
Left to Go: 74.80

I think 4.20 lbs is pretty awesome! I am going to introduce goals (small, medium, and large)


Small Goal (for the Week): To lose at least 3.00 lbs at 10.19.11 weigh in
Medium Goal (for the Month): To lose 10.00 lbs by 11.12.11 (starting small...LOL)
Large Goal: to have lost 50 lbs in 20 weeks


There you have it! Now get back to work!


"Wock N Woll"