Secret Santa!

What a merry holiday....my car broke Monday night (at work) i had to two it to my mechanic, which it cost me $136.00 and to this day it is still at the shop, and will be fixed by tonight! I had to borrow my moms car...the Bitch goddess car.........................baahshhshhahha that is the sticker on the back of it! LOL! But it was all fine when i got to work this morning to a gift on my desk!


Ever since i have been in this department we play secret Santa! They didn't do any thing fun around Christmas time before i was here. I like to bring the holiday spirit back into action! HA! So it seems that every year the person who has me doesn't give me a gift until the very last day or so, this year it isn't playing like that! I got a gift today! 

Tattoo Books!

My secret Santa is obviously someone who knows me, lol! I arrived to work today and there was a package on my desk, inside were the above Tattoo books. Thank you secret Santa! HEHE!

This year is really tight in the gift giving. I still figured out a way to get DB more then one gift. I can wait to see her reaction this year! She is so much more into the decorations and lights. It is amazing to see her face light up when we go down a street with lights on the houses. She says "WOW!!! Yook mommy yights..." I love it! The raw emotion/excitement coming from her! It truly lights up my heart. I am almost afraid for her to grow up because i know this raw/real emotion will slowly dim. It really makes me sad. Is there a way to get some magic dust to sprinkle on her to make her not grow up....and while you're in the magic dust bag....get me some of that skinny dust and just dump it on me! LOL!

What are your plans for your Holiday this year? Are you starting new traditions? 

Talk about a nice fellow

This morning I heard a wonderful TRUE story on my favorite radio show, the mikey show, and i thought i would share the story with you all! 


A Victim Treats His Mugger Right


It brought a smile to my face, because there is a shortage of nice people in the world these days. 


I hope it brings as much love to your heart as it did to mine!

Rosie's adventures in birth and beyond: Doula Robin's Monoamniotic Twins

Please take a minute to read the below link, this is a friend of my friends. My heart goes out to her and her family.

Rosie's adventures in birth and beyond: Doula Robin's Monoamniotic Twins

Finding a new me

I have been slacking in everything lately, I am not sure why or what is going on. 


It is time to get my ass back on track and no more excuses! Even if i don't post a blog everyday that will be OK but i need to find the Happy again! Because i am not happy in my body, or environment. 


I am hoping that with the changes coming in 2012 it will help bring my Happy back. We'll have to see....LOL


I am going to have to get back on track with walking at lunch and eating healthy (1200 calories) again. YES!! BRING ON THE FOOD JOURNALS well my weight watchers tracker thing! 


I have been making so many excuses as to why it is OK if i eat crap, or not track my food,  and it really isn't ok. 


I will be starting school in 2012 but before i can even start i have to take a High School Assessment test, due to the fact that i did not get my high school diploma or a GED. I take the test on Saturday. I am actually nervous about it, 1 - because i haven't been in school for 8-10 years, and 2- the practice test has algebra on it, I NEVER took algebra. I have been you tubing it and trying to figure it out. i just hope i pass this thing! 


Change subject...


Dooty booty is talking so much! like full sentences, it is amazing! she is so smart! She sings her abc's and can identify the alphabet which it neat! She is getting so tall, I cant believe she will be 3 in March! Where is this time going?!?!?!??!?!??


I have to get back to business now! 


Please keep me in your thoughts that i can overcome this crap and finally stay on track, instead of just messing everything up!


Thanks!


"Wock n Woll"

So excited

I'm not going to lie - the news has been released that in less then 3 months my sister is going to be moving out of the house....and guess what that means!!!!!! That will be the start where I magically transform her room into dooty booty sanctuary! I asked dooty booty what color she would like her room and she said PURPLE! So that is where we are starting. All her furniture is white so that will be perfect! Right now we share a room - I really think this will be good for both of us!

We will also be transforming the "living room" (well my sister uses it as that) into a play room/my office/movie room. I will be getting rid of the cable that is in there and only having the Wii and Netflix and DVDs! And obviously a better organizer for her toys and stuff to make it look nice. I am going to try to keep all her toys out of her room eek. I don't know if that will happen, but it is worth a shot.

Although I really hope my sister is making the right decision for herself and taking the next step in her life, I just can't help but to worry about her! She is my older sister of 2 years but it's what I have always done - looked after her. So I worry. But I know in my heart of hearts she will make the right decisions for her. With saying that I am ready to start helping her pack her bags lol so I can start the transformation to the new dooty booty room lol!!!!

I am defiantly going to post some before and after pictures for you all to enjoy as much as I will!!!!! Let the count down begin!!!

"wock n woll"

Happy 11.11.11 and happy veterans day!

It's weird that today is 11.11.11 - I personally think it is lucky and am excited I got to be a part of it!

I also wanted to say happy veterans day! To all who have served and are serving - and who will be serving our country - I thank you! Although I wish we did not have wars and everyone would just keep their eyes on their own papers, so we wouldn't have to lose our family or friends! I am extremely thankful for those of you who stand up and fight for us! Thank you!

Goodnight all I know I have something to do tomorrow....lol

"wock n woll"

If you missed 11:11 11-11-11 have a little piece from me:

Thankful Thursday 11.10.11

Day before 11.11.11, boy I really didn't think I would see this day. I mean when you are 16-17 ish who really thinks they will live past 25 ha! I have to admit 17 was drug induced so I didnt think I would make it. In 4 days from now I will have not done drugs for 6.5 years by choice and not going to rehab. I don't even want to imagine what my life would be like if I was still using. I was getting in so much trouble because I was trying to fill some sort of void that my mind had created, which now I would call depression, self diagnosed. To this day I still haven't gotten completely over my issues with depression but I would have to say that dooty booty is my angel! I am so thankful for her. I don't think I would be here today without her. Mama loves you so much!

I'm back! Alot of these will be posted from my iPhone so they will probably be short and sweet ha!

"Wock n woll"